Sunday, August 29, 2010

I just wanna SANG!

It took me a while to figure out what to write on this post. I do miss a lot of things, but what I miss the most is singing. I have been in many choirs and even a band, even sang to myself on many occassions too. I even incorporated my love of writing and wrote a few songs.

I love musicals (movies and stage plays) and now I know why. Music is just in me and I think its time I let it back out.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

31 to 35

Today marks one month until my birthday...a milestone some would say. I'll be 35! 30 was a big moment for me in that I wanted to have my life plan in order, which I actually did, but putting it into place has been harder than I thought. I am looking forward to turning a year older because I don't look my age, but the deeper feeling of non accomplishment does not make me happy :-(.
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Friday, August 27, 2010

Sushi it is!

The only favorite place I can think of would be my own home, and since I don't really have that yet, I'll tell ya about my favorite restaurant. Its called Wasabi! Eating there daily can put a real strain on my wallet, so I usually only go about 2 or 3 times a month. My friend Anita comes with me most of the time and we have lots of pictures of us and our food there on Facebook. Some of my favorite dishes are...

The spicy tuna roll, spicy salmon roll, salmon box, chicken eggrolls, shrimp tempura roll, and this luscious beauty below, known as the Chef Special!

Wasabi is located on Woodward near the DIA and Wayne State University in Detroit, MI. Check them out here.

Map of Business

Be afraid, be very afraid...

I am not scared of many things, mostly bugs, spiders, snakes, and reptiles in general. However I do have a fear of dying a failure. I know that is a pretty deep thing to say, but lately I have been feeling sad about not accomplishing the things I would have liked to with my life. I know there is still time, but with all the things I had planned for this year that didn't happen, it can be a bit discouraging. I want to be a good role model for my daughter and set a great example for her and I just feel like I have fallen short on that. While these are very real and understandable fears to most people, I have one that is not.

The weirdest fear I posses is one that not even I can explain, but this terrifies me like nothing else...

It is...

Wait for it...

Are you ready?

That's right! Lightening! I don't know why, but the mere thought of it makes me cringe. SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME!

Glory Day!

I have had many firsts in my life, but perhaps the most memorable will be when I move into my OWN house! No more living with family, not being able to decorate the way I want to, or just having simple privacy. It will definitely be a glorious moment and I can't wait for the day to come.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

The Bucket List

'The Bucket List' was an interesting and inspiring movie and it made a lot of people think about their own bucket lists. I have thought about this a lot in the last few years, but have most of my items in my head. A friend of mine told me about this application actually called bucket list. You create your own list, share with others, and even comment on others lists. Its available for android and iphone. Check it out below.

Bucket List App

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Celebration of Love

I always cry at weddings, no matter if they're real or on movies or TV, even if I just hear about people getting married. Some people call me a wuss, but theres just something about the celebration of love that brings out tears of joy.

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Introducing...The Frugal Organizer

Most of you know that I am an organizer. I have been called an organization freak and some have told me I'm just "too organized" to which I say no such thing! So I have decided to share some of my organization "skills" with everyone else via a new blog...The Frugal Organizer! Come check it out.

Monday, August 23, 2010

They love me, they really love me

When I'm feeling down, all I have to do is hear from one of my friends through an email, call, or text, sometimes even just a feeling of knowing that they are thinking of me. It feels good to know that I am surrounding by so many people who love and care about me as much as I do them.

A baby is a gift from above

I love children and although I only have one biological one, I am mom, aunt, friend, role model, and confidant to many. Something I feel very strongly about is when "parents" neglect and/or abandon their kids. Mothers leaving their kids with their so-called boyfriends because they are in love just goes all over me. Donating DNA does not automatically make you a parent!

Its too much to even attempt to write here, so I'll just leave you with a few links to stories that illustrate this fact.

While these are only a very small percentage, there are many more and I am thankful for people like a special friend of mine, Talise "Princess" Jones, who are there for these kids when everyone else has failed them. She truly understands God's gifts to us as parents (biological and chosen).

The moment my mind went blank

For once I can't think of anything to write on this subject, but since it is about "a moment" I guess this will do. We'll revisit it later.

Goodbye August

Well I am starting to sound like a broken record in saying things didn't go as planned. I just think maybe MY plan isn't the plan that is supposed to happen. I trust in God that he will lead me through and show me the path in which I am to take. August did bring me time spent with those I love the most and I wouldn't give that up for anything.

I am not giving up on my plans nor am I going to stop making new ones. I learned a lot about myself this month and I will take that knowledge with me into September and beyond and keep adding to it until my dreams become a reality.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

What ifs...

I try to live life with no regrets, at least now anyway. So, with that being said I choose not to dwell on the regrets I do have from the past.  I do however have a series of what ifs running through my head every day.

You're Golden!

I had my golden birthday on September 28, 2003. So, I will have to claim this as my favorite. While I didn't do anything too special, it was special to me because my sister also had her golden birthday the same year. I still sometimes tell people I am 28 and they believe me because I don't really look my age anyway :-).

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

No one can choose just one

It is a hard to pick a favorite memory as I have so many. All of my high school days were very memorable, some days I wish I could go back to that time. I can't forget the choir, volley ball team and Spanish class, where I had the most fun, and running to Ms. Ayler's History class because I didn't want to get hit with the ruler for being late. Two senior trips; one to Florida and the other to Ghana, where I met some of the most wonderful people I've ever encountered in my whole life. The bats in the trees were not a welcome sight, but the overwhelming feeling of love from that country was amazing!

The birth of my daughter was very memorable in that it was a milestone in my life and I remember saying "I wanna push," the doctor telling me no, and her dad telling the story afterward so everyone could have a good laugh. She has given me the most memorable moments of my life though. From her first words, and steps, to the way I watched her personality develop and grow from my precious little girl into an independent young woman.

Both my high school and college graduations were noteworthy, more so the college one as I had all of the most important people in my life (at the time) there with me. One is missing from the picture (Khilida) as she is the one taking it.

My trip to California in 2007 was one that I will never forget. This is because I was actually old enough to enjoy it, I wasn't afraid of the banana trees anymore, I spent time with all my relatives that I hadn't seen since I was a kid, and I got to see all the places my cousins had told me about. The place I loved the most was the Bubba Gump restaurant in San Fransisco! I got to see all the things made famous by one of my favorite movies of all time...Forrest Gump. Food, Family, and Forrest, what could be better.

I've watched all the kids in my life grow up right before my eyes, but none has touched me more than DeShon, my pseudo son, who graduated top of his class last year and has truly demonstrated what a responsible young man he has become. I have never been prouder.

While these are only a few of the memorable moments of my life, I hope to make many more great memories in the future.

The first of many

Once again I am playing catch up, so I will have to post three (or four) blog entries tonight.

This one is about my first kiss and since my first first kiss wasn't good enough I guess to be memorable, I'll write about the best first kiss. It just so happened to be with the guy who became and is still now my best friend. We were 15 (almost 16) and in 10th grade, walking down the hallway on the 4th floor, just joking and having fun like we always did. He grabbed me by the hand and guided me over by the pop machine where he planted the biggest and softest kiss on me ever. It was sweet and sensual and to this day, his lips still attract me. I'll always remember it.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Divine Order

Let see, my psychological dreams are easy, they're always of things I think I want. I'm not sure if they are things that are attainable or things I just wish would come to be. Either way, most of them are surely fun!

My real life dreams are a little more complicated and have changed as the years passed, so much so that I dont even know what they are anymore. I know God has a plan for me, so I am just trying to follow the divine order of things.
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Saturday, August 14, 2010

Simple yet sophisticated

Today I wore my green and black sundress, a black tank top with silver accessories and shoes.
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My week

Friday the 13th, nothing eventful happened. It was a rather fun week although that loosely translates into half productive. I did some things I needed to, but others fell by the wayside. Overall it was still a good week.
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Friday, August 13, 2010

Just throw it in the bag!

Today I am carrying my blue jean bag with the brown strap and flower. Inside it resides...

My wallet
Eyeglass case
Make up case which contains...lipgloss, tampons, bc pills, tissue, lotion, hand sanitizer, mirror, pantiliners, sewing kit, inhaler, carmex, fixodent)
Phone charger
Coupon holder
Take 5 bars
Water drink mix
Appointment card
Flash drive
Mint case with coins

Wow that seems like a lot of stuff huh?
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Its all relative

I have three biological brothers and one biological sister.

My brother on my mother's side is 30 years old and still has a lot of growing up to do. We didnt always get along when we were younger, but I love him dearly and because he looks up to me (now that we're both grown) I always tell him the truth and I try not to let him down.

My other siblings belong to my "father" and I have to admit I don't know them that well. This was of no fault of my own and I am constantly trying to rectify that. My sister especially holds a special place in my heart. She was the one who hardly ever got any of my dad's affection and I too never got to see her.

Many revelations have occured in my life over the past year. I regret not being able to spend the time with my brothers and sister that I would have liked to and in the next year I plan to make up for all that time lost.

I cant let this post go by without mentioning the one person who has been closer to me than any biological relative could ever sister Deionna "Peachey" Covés! She is my sister in every way that matters and I love her more than words can say. We may not share the same blood but we definitely share a heart <3.
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Not my typical outfit, but...

Since I haven't done laundry yet, and I only went to the store today, my outfit was less than appealing. It was so hot and I didn't have anything cool to wear. However, my toes (which also currently match my nails) were cute in my little silver sandals.

I had on jean cargo capris with zippered pockets and strings at the bottom, a white shirt with puff sleeves and pink and yellow stitched flowers. I did like my jewelry though, my pink stone butterfly earrings and necklace.
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Monday, August 9, 2010

I believe in you, you believe in me!

How come all my blog posts lead to music somehow? Perhaps I should write songs instead of stories. For those who don't know, that was in reference to the blog title which is a song from one of my favorite movies, The Five Hearbeats!

So, on to the beliefs...I believe everything happens for a reason, no matter how much you don't like something, its all a part of a bigger plan that you might not even be aware of the time. I believe you don't have to go to church every Sunday to have Jesus in your heart and just because you do go doesn't make you a christian. I believe God doesn't make mistakes.

I believe you can be whatever you wanna be...

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Give me one moment in time

I remember singing this song in the Northern High Shool choir. I really miss it. I have been in many church and community choirs, even sang in a band for a while. "The Sign" was my signature song. None of these compared to the feeling I got from being in the school choir. I looked forward to senior year when I'd get a chance to direct at graduation, the tradition started for us by the best choir director to ever teach!

Enter Ms. Livingston...she took over when our original director got a better job as principal at another school. We missed her terribly for several reasons. Not only did our entire song selection and singing style change, but we didn't get to sing at any of the places we used to like the local nursing homes, homeless shelters, and most importantly the solo ensemble festival for which we had taken first place three years runnning. Directing the choir at graduation was also out. We all hated her, but nothing could compare to what happened at the Evening of the Arts, "moment" of this post.

We had always been grouped with two other schools to sing a number that would be the opening act for this wonderful evening hosted at the glorious Detroit FOX theatre. Its the day before the event and we go to the theatre to rehearse the song with everyone. We're on stage and the director, a teacher from one of the other schools announces which song it is and our choir looks around at each other like we've just heard a family member had died. Why? Because our "director" never taught us the song. It was the most humiliating moment of my life and I, along with the rest of the choir never forgave her.
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Saturday, August 7, 2010

You don't know me?

In an effort to get more followers for my blog...I want to play a little game. Who knows me best? Answer the questions as best you can. Some have multiple answers so you get double "points" if you get them all. As a matter of fact, some of them can even be found within other blog posts.

1. How old am I?

2. What's my middle name?

3. Who do I admire most?

4. What's my favorite color?

5. What's my favorite movie?

6. Which food(s) can I not live without?

7. How many siblings do I have?

8. What are my creative vices?

9. What do I want to do more than anything in my life right now?

10. What do I wear most of?

11. What do I have the most of?

12. What is my biggest pet peeve?!

Feel free to browse my other posts and comment as you see fit. Don't forget to become a follower :-).

He's my lobster

I've been blessed with many women I can truly call friend. Read all about them in my blog post The Women Behind Wanda. So, then I'll just tell you about the male one here...

We met in 1991 and I was reluctant to talk to him. In 1992 we began our relationship that led to our beautiful daughter being born in 1994. Down the road plans changed but one thing remained true...he's the one I can tell anything and everything to. We share a bond that no one can break, though they may try. From just a look sometimes, to a simple gesture, we know what it means without even saying a word.

We have had our ups and downs and while we're no longer that same couple, we share so many things. There were times when I didn't even want to hear his name and he hasn't always communicated completely with me. I guess that's just the story of life, but we always made it through and 19 years later, our friendship has never been stronger. We've grown as we've aged and I look forward to getting to know even more about the person who is my true love, my writing partner, and my bff, Donnell "Covae" Covés.

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My day

This was for yesterday, because I got so busy I forgot to write it.

The weather was beautiful, but I chose to stay in being that it was no so hot outside, that made it cooler in the house and more bearable to get some things done. I got up early, caught up on some TV shows I had missed, washed the dishes, made breakfast, and cleaned out my email. After a few more household chores, I had lunch, took a bath, and decided to take a nap. When I awoke, I got an unexpected yet very welcomed phone call and that made me smile.

I finished my food inventory and entered everything into the My Pantry app (downloadable here for any android phone), then wrote down everything that was missing so I know exactly what I need to get from the store. I wish I could just order groceries and have them delivered to my door. I despise grocery shopping!

I watched a little TV, then back to bed where I slept very well for the first time in a long time. It felt good.

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Thursday, August 5, 2010

Love is...

There are many types of love... The love we have for our family, friends (near and far), motherly love, brotherly love for which the city of Philadelphia is named that I would like to visit someday, the love one has for their pet or even a favorite object or article of clothing (or shoe lol) all have different meanings. The most prominent type of love that comes to mind for me is the romantic kind.

So many clichés about what the word love means: "love means never having to say you're sorry" or perhaps the beautiful yet simple love is... Cartoons that everyone passes along. My definition of love in any form, is the feeling of a feeling for someone/thing you can't live without. The unconditional... One you'd do anything and give anything for. I've been blessed to have many types of unconditional love in my life and I wouldn't have it any other way.

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My life in lists

I am nothing without planning, but is it possible to be too organized? I have a list for everything, sometimes multiple lists, a place for everything and everything in its place. It sometimes becomes overwhelming to keep up with them all.

I've been called an organization freak, obsessive compulsive, and I can't say that I disagree. So, from now on I promise myslef to be more spontaneous.

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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

You are what you eat?

Today I had...

B - sausage and cheese on an English muffin, a peach and grapes, a homemade mocha

L - chicken patty sandwich

D - leftover salmon, mashed potatoes and corn

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Tuesday, August 3, 2010

They taught me different things

I've written many blog entries about my mom, so I'll dedicate this one to my "dad".

My parents got married because my mother was pregnant, her "first time" no less. It was a myth that came true to life. He was a jerk from the beginning as I'm told and they finally got a divorce when I was three. My mother never looked back. My childhood was great. I never wished them back together and though I love my mom, I hoped for more time with my dad.

I thought I would be able to get this when I moved into his house three years ago while he was away in Brazil. He came back and things were good. My daughter was getting to her grandad and I was happy for that. Then, instead of him going back to Brazil with his gf, who is also the same age as me, he brought her and her two daughters to live with us, married her and treated the girls way better than he ever did my sister and I. They eventually took over the house and he asked me and my daughter to leave which I did gladly because his wife was turning me into a person I didn't like.

That situation taught me two things...I can and will make it living on my own and that my father is exactly who my mother thought he was so many years ago. Had anyone told me I would came out of this with something positive I wouldn't have believed it, but I did. I learned for myself that my "dad" doesn't care anything about me and it only made me stronger because he is the one missing out.

I know I said I was dedicating this one to my father, but I couldn't let it pass without saying how thankful I am to my mama for the way she raised me, most times having to be mom and dad and making me the stong, independent woman I am today.

I love you mom, with your crazy self :-).

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He was first...

This was supposed to be posted yesterday, but I kind of forgot.

My first love was a disaster! I don't even want to claim it as a "love". He was a devil worshiping, cheating murderer (no exaggeration).

And there's nothing more to be said about that.

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Sunday, August 1, 2010

I am beautiful, no matter what they say...Simply Wanda!

A little late, but still here...

I am me, plain and simple, no muss, no fuss, a what you see is what you get kinda girl.

I'm 34, a single mom just trying to make a better life for me and my daughter. I love hanging with my family, movies, writing and anything musical. I originally started blogging as a way to vent/filter my thoughts, about nothing in particular and anything that came to my mind. Sometimes I may write one sentence or four full paragraphs, just depends on my mood.

I didn't used to like myself on the outside, but the more I look at who I am on the inside, I love ME more and realize the outside isn't as bad as I thought.

Bright, funny, cool, mildly confident...Simply Wanda!

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Hello August

Today was my niece's 13th birthday! I can't believe how much she's grown. We had an awesome time celebrating with her.

Today also marks the start of a lot of new things in my life. They will all be revealed in later posts.

My main goal for this month is to finish planning Rajanée's party so I can focus on other things.

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