I need to move...there's so much I have to pack and organize, which I did when I first moved back in with my grandma, but the longer I stayed, the more stuff got unpacked and unorganized and now I'm overwhelmed. My scanning project was put on hold, which means I have many binders and books of recipes left to be digitized. I still have to find a house, which has been a task in itself. Price, amenities and location are all in consideration. I don't want to settle.
Everything has to be cleaned and condensed. Every time I get ready to do it, something gets in the way. Perhaps I need to just take a week and do everything I need to do and nothing else in between. I may not even find time to eat, which might not necessarily be a bad thing.
I'm still debating whether or not to go back to school, which requires picking a program, deciding whether or not to retake my prerequites, not to mention another financial burden. I have weighed the pros and cons and it seems that almost everything is in favor of doing it, but the specifics are still clouding my head.
If only there were more than 24 hours in a day!
I just watched this movie last week, and I must say it got me thinking...what would we do if we could have a "surrogate" to go out into the world and do the things we really didn't want to do? It could look like we want to look, never age, never gain weight, even change sex if we so chose. Would you do it? Could you stay strapped into a chair in your home or an office and never see the outside world?
The movie itself was pretty good with a very surprising, yet predictable ending. Our technology is so great now that it might not be long before we actually see something like this come to life. If you haven't seen it, check out the synopsis.
At any given moment of any day I could have a million thoughts running through my head. Its ok to keep them there, but what fun would that be. I have so many outlets now it helps to keep me from going into mental overload. My blog has no theme, its just me. One day you may get a recipe, the next a heartfelt poem or just the events of my day. A picture may accompany the post or maybe not. Some of my greatest moments in life are spent writing, most often about nothing in particular. Thank you for being a part of my wondering and wandering (at times) mind.
A fitting title for my blog which didn't make the cut...
I have previously bought shoes similar to ones I already own. I've bought shoes that I loved but didn't have clothes to go with them. I have shoes I've never even worn. I would tell how many, but I truly do not know. My feet are also changing. Shoes I once loved don't fit the same or rub in a different spot, maybe its time to give them up? Now I'm looking for this pair in the picture, which are $34.99 at www.metrostyle.com. I refuse to pay that much for a flower, some straps and no heel. Because no matter how much I love shoes, I'm still frugal lol. I have checked ebay and found one similar, but it looks cheaply made to me. I looked high and low on other sites, but all lead me back to metrostyle. I think I will just have to go to cutesygirl, one of my favorite shoe sites and get these! There's so many cute colors to choose from. But, first I should check my inventory to make sure I don't already have some :-).
About a year ago I was hurt beyond belief by who is now known only to me as "sperm donor". I will spare you the details as most of you reading this already know anyway. Through the support of my family and friends I have come to realize that I need to let go of this grudge for my own sanity. He will never know of my decision, this is strictly for ME! God knows my heart and to preserve my relationship with him, I must forgive my father.
It starts with soft rye bread slathered with a butter spread (I like land o lakes butter with canola oil). Then layer in this order...Dijon MustardA few pieces of your favorite sliced turkeyA slice of American cheeseOne roasted red pepperMore turkeyA slice of provolone (or swiss) cheeseA few slices of avocado sprinkled with lemon pepperTop with the other slice of bread and grill, preferrably on the George Foreman grill until the cheese melts and nice grill marks form. Enjoy!
My mother gets on my nerves more often than not, but yesterday something strange happened. We went to the mall, along with my daughter and to my surprise, SHE was happy to be with me. I was irritated at first, but by the end of the day I had come around and remembered the woman I love who used to take me anywhere and I was happy to go. I also couldn't believe how friendly she is to other people too, which is the total opposite of me now. She bought us lunch, cussed out an unattentive waiter (who deserved it btw) and I just thought...that's my Mama! She gave me some much needed skillets and a pot she had at her house and even gave me a hug and kiss before she went home. Even more shocking was her phone call this morning to say how much she enjoyed our time together. I felt happy, if only for a moment...
I was just thinking...way back when I started college in 1993 I applied for a job in a building called Scott Hall, but I didn't take it because I thought it was too far to walk from class to work (we didn't have a shuttle then). Little did I know that this building was associated with the Medical school, which is the field in which I was originally to do my studies. I wanted to be a pediatrician for as long as I can remember, but somewhere along my journey that dream got cast away. So, yesterday I went to an information session in the school of pharmacy, which just so happens to be right next door to Scott Hall...hmmmm. So, my mind starts wondering, what if I had taken that job, what if I had started Grad school right after I got my BA, what if I had known about the Physician's Assistant program while I was doing my undergrad? Maybe I could've taken the prerequisites or done better on the ones I have, not that its any excuse for not having the GPA the program requires. But, I just wonder how different would my life have been? Is this just another thought wasted?
A healthy lifestyle is what I'm striving for now. My tastebuds have changed so much. I dont like popcorn or eggs or even fried chicken and I absolutely despise ramen noodles. Somewhere along the road I lost the kool-aid and jolly ranchers and I know I'm better for it, but I sure would love some real sour patch kids, not these sugary substitutes they're making now that cost a dollar a bag for not even as much as I could get for a quarter back then. They have these nostalgia boxes now for sale online, I think I might get one.
How fitting that I would create my blog on this day and I feel resurrected in doing so. Its been a long time coming and I'm glad I finally did it. I've had a hard life the past two years, but God has seen me through and I know I don't thank him nearly enough. I have lots of thoughts in my head so look for more coming soon. Happy Easter to everyone!
