What a (this) Girl Wants

This post is dedicated to my best friend, the love of my life, who will always be even if we never find our way back to each other in that way again.

I want to be the last thought on your mind before you go to sleep and the first thought when you awake.

I want to go on a date with no distractions, just the joy of you and I being with each other.

I want to cuddle on the couch and watch friends, while you comb my hair the way only you can.

I want to watch you cook dinner because you in the kitchen is Sexy.

I want to know that I'm the only one you'll call baby.

All those sexy things you know I love, the unspoken thoughts that you can read right through, yeah those, bring them back (and a few more too).

I want to send shivers down your spine with just the sound of my voice.

The little texts or notes to let me know you're thinking about me and want me to have a great day are missed.

I want to hear you say "I Love You" even though I already know its true. 

I want to take a trip somewhere neither of us has ever been.

I want to be kissed in the sweetest way, just to say, have a good day. 

I want to be missed.

I want to sing to you and have you hanging on every word.

I want a "Love Like Denim"

I want to hold your hand though the walk we call life. 

Our love should be what others aspire to have.

To infinity and beyond...

In short... I want to be ADORED!

With love comes pain, with pain, come pleasure.  Pleasure me and I'll pleasure you, just the way you want me to. The journey has been long and the road has been winding, but our path is right where its supposed to be and whatever becomes of it, I will not stray.  This is not the end...

The Women behind Wanda

Mama, with whom it all began, a name that speaks volumes with no more being said. We've had our ups and downs, but through it all I know nobody loves me more. I hope to always make her proud.

Grandma, the woman who has been there for me when nobody else was. She knows what I need without me even saying a word. Tough love was not in her vocabulary but she definitely loved hard. It is she who taught me to never settle for less than I'm worth and always remember where I came from.

Peachey...no words can ever express what you have brought to my life. If I hadn't given your brother my number at that skating party so many years ago, I'd probably not even know you and now I can't imagine my life without you in it. We couldn't be any closer if we were siamese twins.

Khilida...you're the only one I can not talk to for any amount of time and it's like we just spoke yesterday. We've both grown up quite a bit, but those days of hanging out at Hart Plaza and dressing in the same clothes are forever etched in my heart. The term bff doesn't begin to sum up our ever lasting relationship. I know you'll always have my back and trust that I'll always have yours.

Darran, whose always looked out for me. You not only took me on, but my daughter as well. We lost touch for a while, but fate brought us back together and I couldn't be happier to be working with you again. My supervisor, my idol, role model and friend. You'll always hold a special place in my heart.

Anita...we have more in common than I think even we both realized. I am so happy to call you friend. You truly are my "sister from another mister".

Wendy, whose always had my best interests at heart and knows what I need to hear before I even ask the question...you'll always be that special person I admire for so many reasons.

Voni, from the moment we "met" I knew you were one lady I always wanted in my corner. You have inspired me in ways I didn't even know were possible.

Lizzy...I never thought I'd find a friend so far away whom I'd confide in as much as you. Thank you for always being my crying shoulder and listening ear.

Carol...what can I say, girl we've been through some rough stuff, but you never let it get you down. You give me hope in more ways than one and I'm so glad you chose ME to be in YOUR circle.

Bethany...we met at Church, no more fitting place, for God doesn't make mistakes and I'm so glad he brought us together.

Katherine...we found our way back to each other and I'm so glad we did. Nobody lifts my spirits the way you do.

Kellie...who would've thought a group could bring so many people together. You've entrusted me with so much and never regretted that decision. I am so proud of how you've taken your life in the right direction and you've inspired me to do the same.

TammyD...no matter how rough life gets for you, you're always there to lend kind words to someone else. That is a rare quality and I'm glad to have been on the receiving end of it.

Genise...I've known you so long I don't even remember how we first started our friendship. But, I am so glad we did. I only wish we lived closer so I could give you all the support you need.

Tracey...You've been more to me than I think even you realize. I know your faith in friendship is shakey, but I'm glad you gave me the chance to brighten your day and I'll be there for you as long as you want me to be.



To all my real family, my aunts, cousins and my only bio sister Michelle...we lost some time through no fault of our own, but I love you greatly and pray that our relationships are forever unchanged.

I know I couldn't mention everyone, but please know this is in no way a reflection of you not being a very important part of my life. I thank God every day that I am surrounded by so many wonderful people who love me for ME and I greatly return the sentiment.

Reconnecting with Mama

My mother gets on my nerves more often than not, but yesterday something strange happened. We went to the mall, along with my daughter and to my surprise, SHE was happy to be with me. I was irritated at first, but by the end of the day I had come around and remembered the woman I love who used to take me anywhere and I was happy to go.  I also couldn't believe how friendly she is to other people too, which is the total opposite of me now. She bought us lunch, cussed out an unattentive waiter (who deserved it btw) and I just thought...that's my Mama! She gave me some much needed skillets and a pot she had at her house and even gave me a hug and kiss before she went home. Even more shocking was her phone call this morning to say how much she enjoyed our time together.  I felt happy, if only for a moment...