Random

List of random things on my mind today...

Just once I'd like to go to the store and not look at the prices.

I want to go back to a time when we thought 4gb was a lot of space.

Kids will never know the joy of twirling a phone cord while on the phone with the one you "love".

I miss my sister.

Stop signs in Detroit are apparently just a suggestion.

I want to relive 2010.

I wish someone would buy my darn S4 cases already!  They're listed on Ebay and craigslist.

I work too hard.

Nothing makes me feel better than music!

One day I will live to work and not work to live.

Social media has taken over our lives and corrupted our youth. 

Only in Michigan can you see two different people on the same day dressed for two different seasons. 

I kind of like working out, but I do not want to have to do it for the rest of my life.

If you are one of those people that tells a fat person they're losing weight because you think it makes them feel better... STOP IT!  All this does is make them feel worse when they see that they really aren't and some people are just happy being who they are. 

I need to stop focusing on others' grammar.

That's it for now.  I'm sure I'll come back with more later, maybe I should do this daily hmmmm...

My Morning Routine

I don't know why I wanted to post this, maybe just as a reminder to myself, but anyway, this is what I do (almost) every day.

Wake up, look at the clock and determine whether or not I have time to go pee and go back to sleep or just get up, usually the latter. 

Let Charlie out, try to wait for him to come back, but can't, go pee.

Let Charlie back in, feed and water him.

Take lunch out of the fridge, which usually includes breakfast too.

Wash my face, brush my teeth, get dressed, brush (at least) my hair.

Take my meds/vitamins etc.

Kiss charlie bye, which usually results in him turning his head away because he's mad I'm leaving.

Put on the appropriate pre-selected outerwear.

Grab my perfectly organized bags, phone, keys and I'm out!

I did not mention shower, because...no I am not a "dirty" girl, unless asked to be. I just do as much as possible at night, including making sure my outfit, shoes, accessories, glasses and outerwear match and are ready to go so I get as much sleep as possible... See above.  I plan meals weekly so I know what I'm taking what day.  I have OCD as most people know, so my whole life is a series of lists and plans.  I will be posting my weekly meal plans again on my other blog:  The Frugal Organizer very soon.

Struggle

I said I would post any and everything even if just a word, so today, a word is it... Struggle is what I feel in every aspect of my life right now.

Red Band Society

A simple little show that turned out to be so much more than I thought it would be. Kids are just kids no matter where they may be, how their relationships evolve or whose spoons them. I took a special liking to the most unlikely character, Emma who was hospitalized for anorexia. Her relationship with her mother reminded me of my and Raja's and while she doesn't have an illness, our communication has changed and this show has made me realize more than ever how badly I need to fix it.

Prayer Changes

I've written a prayer for plans before and some of them actually came into fruition. Right now I don't know what my future holds. I cry and I pray, I cry then pray some more. I feel like everything is crashing around me, I've felt this before, how I got though it I really don't know. I'm not even sure I actually did. My daughter needs me and she won't admit it, but even if she did, I'm not sure I could help. There's a new feeling, I must really be in a terrible place. Praying some more...

Today...

I was emotional about almost everything. I didn't even get out of my pajamas and I, yes I baked! I made chocolate cherry cake and peanut butter muffins from scratch. I even ate real bacon in all its porky good and badness. Then I watched this movie... Mom's night out. It was good and unexpectedly inspiring. It's been forever since I've written anything, here or otherwise. How many times did I promise to rectify that? I even started three other posts recently that I've yet to finish. Well this is my attempt at doing it once and for all. Be it a story, a thought or even at times just a word, I'm writing it. I want to make my life have meaning even if only to myself. I have friends that I hardly ever see, and I miss them all terribly. I miss my daughter and my bdwpbff (you know who you are) too. I have so many thoughts, ideas and plans in my head, just dying to come out. Everything will be revealed in time. Stay tuned...

Things 2013 taught me

I know the year isn't over, but I felt like writing and this is what I came up with. 

A random list of what I have learned in 2013 (so far):

I am my brother's keeper

Social media has made it way too convenient for those with the most offensive, racist and insensitive views to "share" them with the world

The key to crispy sweet potato fries is cornstarch (eventhough this didn't work for me)

Baking isn't so hard

My mom really loves me

How did I ever live without Pinterest

You can make anything into a quesadilla

I do not know some people as well as I thought I did

I have a pretty boring life

Writing IS my calling and I am determined to make it so

I cannot do anything without music

I am ME just the way I am and I am all I need to be ME

Animation is cool

My daughter actually listens to me and values what I say, think and feel

I have friends in high places

You may not always get what you want, but you'll always have exactly what you need

Inspiration can sometimes come from the most unlikely places

I have super (cleaning) powers

A best friend isn't really that if they don't consider you to be the same

The days I try least are the days I do best

I can go through every possible emotion in one day and come out fine

To be continued...

There is no substitute for a face-to-face conversation

2014 has to be better

No matter how much money I have, it never seems to be enough for what I need

I will always be misunderstood